Journal Entry:
Wed Nov 19, 2008, 9:54 PM
...keeps getting stranger and stranger. I've been on the road for over 5 weeks living from a camera gear case - I've been shooting in TX, SF, LA, and Jamaica - back in LA now returning to TX soon.
As many of you know I've been single for the past 6 months - it's been a strange and amazing ride. In the middle of it when it didn't make sense and everything seemed wrong I kept telling myself that I needed to embrace that things shouldn't be any other way than they are.
When change overwhelms you and nothing in your life makes sense the best thing you can do is release to it and stop thinking things should be a different way.
There's a word for thinking things should be any other way than they are: Suffering
"He was too young to die..."
"I should make more money..."
"I should have this or that..."
all these attachments ultimately lead no where but to suffering.
So little has made sense in my life but I've trusted this path will take me where I need to be and I've been swept away in a current of new energy, amazing new people, and inspiration. I'm probably leaving TX soon, leaving my property and studio and so much behind is going to be difficult but I'm excited about all the new energy and opportunities waiting for me... and breathing a sigh of relief for all the chaos and bad energy that is slowly being phased out of my life.
I hope to have the new LP member site launched soon, it will feature sets of hot girls but it won't be another ___girls site - there will be behind the scenes footage, lighting diagrams, lighting and editing lessons, and Q&A threads attached to each shoot.
I still owe over $25,000 to my attorneys I'm planning on completing and releasing a DVD soon to raise funds I'll post more about that soon.
I know I've been sort of quiet around here for a while, but rest assured my work and web presence will be back soon stronger than ever.
Forks and Shockers,
Philip
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Im going to start to quote you, thank you for the inspiration.
I really wish i could have made it to the Ziv__ gig in SF but i was half way around the world with a backpack and one lens at that point.
We might run into each other regardless, I'm Ken Marcus's assistant.